Saturday, November 10, 2007

lastest happenings and random thoughts

This week has just flown by -- like a BLUR --
Heath was here and then gone again way too fast -
and though I am relieved to be Cancer Free it is kind of odd to actually let go of it. Almost like I can't believe it is real. I don't have to fight it anymore and I am FREE from it.

Aside from the cancer stuff nothing seems to be going as "planned" and some moments it can seem to sneak up and strangle me but for the most part I am trying to focus on the fact that just because things aren't happening in "MY TIMING" doesn't mean they aren't going according to HIS -- and honestly THAT IS REALLY THE POINT -- ISN'T IT

Before Heath left Makenna came down with a stomach virus and she missed school everyday except for Monday this week. At one point Makenna was holding her head over the toilet - the dog was throwing up and Noah was saying "mom my stomach is really hurting" For a second I thought "can it get worse" then I took the dog outside and found a lovely dead bird (gross) on my deck. This is one of the things that I took for granted when my husband was home - This would have definitely fallen under the HUSBAND category -- I am telling you this story not to COMPLAIN but to just say that sometimes things FEEL like they are falling apart -- we have all been there - but the GREAT part of the story is that Makenna, Noah, and even the dog are all feeling better and miraculously the dead bird disappeared. I left it on the deck for 2 days because I couldn't stand the thought of having to dispose of it. And on the 3rd day it was GONE. Now I know many of you are thinking - YEAH So WHAT -- but I couldn't help but think that this was just one of the ways that He is looking out for me -- how HE is involved in even the tinyest aspects of my life -- and you know what if He will take care of that little stuff - I know He will not leave me out to dry on the BIG stuff (like selling the house). So I guess what I am saying is that even though we didn't sell the house in record time - I know we will sell it when it is the perfect time

"Let us therefore draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and may find grace to help in time of need." Hebrews 4:16

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