I know it isn't football season but I thought it was a fun title
and can't you just picture me holding up my arms like a football ref
IT IS GOOD
Got my scan results and everything looks good
still working on getting my levels regulated but in the big scheme of things I am feeling so so VERY BLESSED
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
3/25
Doctor said they still don't have my scan results - he said he would contact me tomorrow
dooo dooo do do dooo dooo doo
do
do do
do
do do do
(that was supposed to be the jeopardy music)
So what should a girl do while she is waiting for UBER important news????
who knows but I am thinking I should surf the net
watch some shows I DVR'ed
and then ... maybe ... I will balance my checkbook
ok who am i kidding -- it will be too late to tackle that last one
i will put it off till tomorrow :D
dooo dooo do do dooo dooo doo
do
do do
do
do do do
(that was supposed to be the jeopardy music)
So what should a girl do while she is waiting for UBER important news????
who knows but I am thinking I should surf the net
watch some shows I DVR'ed
and then ... maybe ... I will balance my checkbook
ok who am i kidding -- it will be too late to tackle that last one
i will put it off till tomorrow :D
3/24 crazy drama ... but what did you expect
We made it here safely a week and a half ago and we are STILL HERE
we have had several hiccups in our planned mini "VACATION".
Right before we left a gentleman wanted to rent our house - we didn't think much of it at first but he was very persistant so we met with him here in houston and decided we would rent it to him -- at the last minute (paperwork in hand) he tells us there is another house he is interested in that is closer to his exwife (he is a police officer here and he and his wife have recently divorced but share custody of their 2 children)anyway he didn't think the owners of the other house were willing to take it off the market for the year so he didn't think it would work out - he said he would let us know in two days
He ended up getting the other house and at this point we hadn't packed a single thing - because if he was going to rent it we would have the relocation company send out the movers (which is paid for by dh's company) with the $$ from the rent we would have just paid for an extra storage building to hold the stuff that won't fit into our apartment
so now we were trying to pack in a flash only to find out that all the things we needed like CLOTHES BEDS COUCH LOVESEAT TABLE wouldn't fit in the trailor we had hauled all the way to houston (the one we had to borrow my moms gas guzzling yukon to pull to houston AGAINST the wind ) so once everything was loaded we had no room for our table / any office stuff / or coffee table / or my scrap stuff
-- THAT WAS THE KICKER --
I thought i was going to break down at the point we ended up deciding to unload all the stuff in the living room -- and call the relocation company anyway -- SO we packed all that stuff for NOTHING
all this and i didn't even mention the medical drama
first it started off with the dr. office they didn't order enough thyrogen serum -- so i was only give 2 injections instead of 3 ??? not sure if it make a difference but it stinks when people drop the ball -- then on the day i was supposed to have the scan I get to the hospital (at crack 30 in the morning - and yall know i am NOT a morning person) and they take me back to nuclear medicine only to find out that they had me down for the WRONG scan -- i needed a whole body scan and they had me down for a whole body BONE scan -- so then I am told I will have to come back later that afternoon to take the radioactive iodine and I will have to stay in houston another day and a half to have the scan i planned the "vacation" around --- UGGGGH -- so it wasn't huge but dh had to call his district manager and take extra time off when their store is having a HORRIBLE month (which made me feel so guilty)
anyway I go back to the hospital to get the radioactive iodine and it hasn't arrived -- apparently it was stuck in new england due to bad weather and the flight was delayed -- OMGosh -- i am really freaking at this point because we CANNOT delay this any longer (keep in mind i was still trying to pack the house at this time) all I kept thinking was DH is going to loose his job - not to mention the stress i was under just about taking the test - I think i might have slept a total of 2 hours the night before at 4:30 I finally get to take the radioactive iodine (they closed at 5)
now LUCKY ME - i can't kiss dh or anyone for that matter -- or share a bed with him -- and i was back to flushing the toilet twice (very similar restrictions as my radiation back in oct)But I was rejoicing because this meant I was that much closer to getting the FREAKIN scan over with -- which wouldn't take place for another 48 hours
so skip two days which envolved packing and then dissappointment when it didn't fit
and that brings you to SCAN DAY (Friday) Heath and I had decided to leave Houston once the scan was over that after noon - even though we wouldn't get back to Tulsa until midnight. I was supposed to start the scan as soon as i arrived but there was an emergency in ER that required the machine so i was set back about an hour - they finally take me back and start the scan which takes about 50 minutes or so after it is all finished i am asked to wait - and then a gentleman comes to talk to me about possibly having to have more pics taken and would it be possible for me to stay in town until MONDAY because they wouldn't be able to do them until then ?? now I am freakin -- thinking OMG do i have cancer again??? so anyway he says that he wants me to hang around town and he will put a rush on it and see if 2 of the dr's can look over it and he will call me within two hours -- What was i gonna say..... ummm..... OK ???
so now we are waiting and we get a call about an hour and a half later saying I CAN LEAVE ???? still a little perplexed but I will take it
but now hubby and i realize we will not arrive back in Tulsa until after 2 in the morning so we will leave SATURDAY morning -- anyway we get to talking and realize it didn't make much sense for me to go back to Tulsa when i was going to have to come back and meet the movers in a week or two - and with gas prices being as high as they are it was more cost effective to just stay
so here i am in houston -- at my in laws house (my house is still packed up) with no car and with no Dh to cuddle with at night
BUT The GOOD NEWS is I will talk to my doctor tomorrow about the results of my scan so KEEP Your Fingers crossed for me ...... I will let you guys know as soon as I do but I am expecting SUPER FAB RESULTS
we have had several hiccups in our planned mini "VACATION".
Right before we left a gentleman wanted to rent our house - we didn't think much of it at first but he was very persistant so we met with him here in houston and decided we would rent it to him -- at the last minute (paperwork in hand) he tells us there is another house he is interested in that is closer to his exwife (he is a police officer here and he and his wife have recently divorced but share custody of their 2 children)anyway he didn't think the owners of the other house were willing to take it off the market for the year so he didn't think it would work out - he said he would let us know in two days
He ended up getting the other house and at this point we hadn't packed a single thing - because if he was going to rent it we would have the relocation company send out the movers (which is paid for by dh's company) with the $$ from the rent we would have just paid for an extra storage building to hold the stuff that won't fit into our apartment
so now we were trying to pack in a flash only to find out that all the things we needed like CLOTHES BEDS COUCH LOVESEAT TABLE wouldn't fit in the trailor we had hauled all the way to houston (the one we had to borrow my moms gas guzzling yukon to pull to houston AGAINST the wind ) so once everything was loaded we had no room for our table / any office stuff / or coffee table / or my scrap stuff
-- THAT WAS THE KICKER --
I thought i was going to break down at the point we ended up deciding to unload all the stuff in the living room -- and call the relocation company anyway -- SO we packed all that stuff for NOTHING
all this and i didn't even mention the medical drama
first it started off with the dr. office they didn't order enough thyrogen serum -- so i was only give 2 injections instead of 3 ??? not sure if it make a difference but it stinks when people drop the ball -- then on the day i was supposed to have the scan I get to the hospital (at crack 30 in the morning - and yall know i am NOT a morning person) and they take me back to nuclear medicine only to find out that they had me down for the WRONG scan -- i needed a whole body scan and they had me down for a whole body BONE scan -- so then I am told I will have to come back later that afternoon to take the radioactive iodine and I will have to stay in houston another day and a half to have the scan i planned the "vacation" around --- UGGGGH -- so it wasn't huge but dh had to call his district manager and take extra time off when their store is having a HORRIBLE month (which made me feel so guilty)
anyway I go back to the hospital to get the radioactive iodine and it hasn't arrived -- apparently it was stuck in new england due to bad weather and the flight was delayed -- OMGosh -- i am really freaking at this point because we CANNOT delay this any longer (keep in mind i was still trying to pack the house at this time) all I kept thinking was DH is going to loose his job - not to mention the stress i was under just about taking the test - I think i might have slept a total of 2 hours the night before at 4:30 I finally get to take the radioactive iodine (they closed at 5)
now LUCKY ME - i can't kiss dh or anyone for that matter -- or share a bed with him -- and i was back to flushing the toilet twice (very similar restrictions as my radiation back in oct)But I was rejoicing because this meant I was that much closer to getting the FREAKIN scan over with -- which wouldn't take place for another 48 hours
so skip two days which envolved packing and then dissappointment when it didn't fit
and that brings you to SCAN DAY (Friday) Heath and I had decided to leave Houston once the scan was over that after noon - even though we wouldn't get back to Tulsa until midnight. I was supposed to start the scan as soon as i arrived but there was an emergency in ER that required the machine so i was set back about an hour - they finally take me back and start the scan which takes about 50 minutes or so after it is all finished i am asked to wait - and then a gentleman comes to talk to me about possibly having to have more pics taken and would it be possible for me to stay in town until MONDAY because they wouldn't be able to do them until then ?? now I am freakin -- thinking OMG do i have cancer again??? so anyway he says that he wants me to hang around town and he will put a rush on it and see if 2 of the dr's can look over it and he will call me within two hours -- What was i gonna say..... ummm..... OK ???
so now we are waiting and we get a call about an hour and a half later saying I CAN LEAVE ???? still a little perplexed but I will take it
but now hubby and i realize we will not arrive back in Tulsa until after 2 in the morning so we will leave SATURDAY morning -- anyway we get to talking and realize it didn't make much sense for me to go back to Tulsa when i was going to have to come back and meet the movers in a week or two - and with gas prices being as high as they are it was more cost effective to just stay
so here i am in houston -- at my in laws house (my house is still packed up) with no car and with no Dh to cuddle with at night
BUT The GOOD NEWS is I will talk to my doctor tomorrow about the results of my scan so KEEP Your Fingers crossed for me ...... I will let you guys know as soon as I do but I am expecting SUPER FAB RESULTS
March 12
We are heading to Houston for the week :D
We will be going to Houston tomorrow to visit and to pack up the essentials from our house (which still hasn't sold) We are going to be moving into an apartment soon.
I will also be doing my first full body scan since becoming cancer free in November.
We originally planned this as a VACATION trip then I found out I needed the scan - which was totally fine-- i thought it would be an in and out kind of thing -- but it turns out I will be going to the dr. 4 out of the 7 days we will be in Houston - BUMMER -- I have to get 3 days worth of injections and lab work and then the final day will be the scan - Please pray that I will get a clean bill of health and that the doctor will be able to adjust my meds so that my thyroid levels will be in the appropriate range.
We will also be packing up the things we need from our house so that we will be able to move into an apartment in April --(can you say 2 house payments OUCH) They are saying that the apartment won't be ready until April 11 but I have my fingers crossed that it may be available sooner. Please pray that God will go before us and make this as smooth of a transition as possible
we will be enrolling the kids in school after we return from Houston. They are both excited and nervous.
I will be going back to work part time to help with the apartment costs -- but it is at a LSS - the one I worked at when we lived in OK before -- SUPER EXCITED about that
LOTS of changes coming up
Thanks for your prayers
We will be going to Houston tomorrow to visit and to pack up the essentials from our house (which still hasn't sold) We are going to be moving into an apartment soon.
I will also be doing my first full body scan since becoming cancer free in November.
We originally planned this as a VACATION trip then I found out I needed the scan - which was totally fine-- i thought it would be an in and out kind of thing -- but it turns out I will be going to the dr. 4 out of the 7 days we will be in Houston - BUMMER -- I have to get 3 days worth of injections and lab work and then the final day will be the scan - Please pray that I will get a clean bill of health and that the doctor will be able to adjust my meds so that my thyroid levels will be in the appropriate range.
We will also be packing up the things we need from our house so that we will be able to move into an apartment in April --(can you say 2 house payments OUCH) They are saying that the apartment won't be ready until April 11 but I have my fingers crossed that it may be available sooner. Please pray that God will go before us and make this as smooth of a transition as possible
we will be enrolling the kids in school after we return from Houston. They are both excited and nervous.
I will be going back to work part time to help with the apartment costs -- but it is at a LSS - the one I worked at when we lived in OK before -- SUPER EXCITED about that
LOTS of changes coming up
Thanks for your prayers
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
March 5
Another year has past and now my first born son would have been 12 years old. This was the first year I was able to stay focused on all the positive he brought into my life. It has taken 12 long years to get to that point. It seems sad to me, how this time of year, in the past, has brought me to such a sorrowful place - a place of deep saddness. I can't help but think of how much time I have wasted feeling sorry for myself. This year was different. I filled my day with thoughts of thankfulness. I am so thankful that I was blessed with my little boy. He changed the course of my life - put me on a new path. And though my heart still climbs into my throat when I think of how much I miss him, I can't help but smile when I remember his sweet little face.
Friday, February 01, 2008
February 1st ALREADY
I feel like days .... weeks even .... have just flown by
where is the time going ????
Our house is on the market (it was off for about 2weeks - while we searched for a new realtor) We haven't had any showings other than 4 realtors who have seen it -- but I have a great feeling about this weekend and I am excited to see God move in a MIGHTY way :D :D :D
I started a new bible study today - it was a Christmas gift from a friend - It is called
Keepers of the Home
and is based around the book
A Woman After God's Own Heart
so far it is fabulous -- There are already a ton of marks in my book and it is only day one so that is very exciting for me :D :D I am a big note taker - can't help it -
The kids are doing well -- they actually did extra school work this week so that they could have Friday OFF ;) -- I was happy for them - and happy for me a little too -- I hope to get some scrapping done tonight -- FINGERS CROSSED
p.s. Thank to all you have recently visited or revisited my blog -- I mainly write this stuff for me but it is always fun to know that others get something from it every now and again ;)
here is a small portion of my reading today that really moved me ---- it is a prayer of a China Inland Misson worker - Betty Scott Stam -- she and her husband were led through the streets of China to their execution by decapitation, while their baby lay behind in its crib. This was her daily prayer:
Lord, I give up all my own plans and purposes, all my own desires and hopes, and accept Thy will for my life. I give myself, my time, my all, utterly to Thee to be Thine forever. Fill me and seal me with Thy Holy Spirit. Use me as Thou wilt, send me where Thou wilt, work out Thy whole will in my life at any cost, now and forever.
where is the time going ????
Our house is on the market (it was off for about 2weeks - while we searched for a new realtor) We haven't had any showings other than 4 realtors who have seen it -- but I have a great feeling about this weekend and I am excited to see God move in a MIGHTY way :D :D :D
I started a new bible study today - it was a Christmas gift from a friend - It is called
Keepers of the Home
and is based around the book
A Woman After God's Own Heart
so far it is fabulous -- There are already a ton of marks in my book and it is only day one so that is very exciting for me :D :D I am a big note taker - can't help it -
The kids are doing well -- they actually did extra school work this week so that they could have Friday OFF ;) -- I was happy for them - and happy for me a little too -- I hope to get some scrapping done tonight -- FINGERS CROSSED
p.s. Thank to all you have recently visited or revisited my blog -- I mainly write this stuff for me but it is always fun to know that others get something from it every now and again ;)
here is a small portion of my reading today that really moved me ---- it is a prayer of a China Inland Misson worker - Betty Scott Stam -- she and her husband were led through the streets of China to their execution by decapitation, while their baby lay behind in its crib. This was her daily prayer:
Lord, I give up all my own plans and purposes, all my own desires and hopes, and accept Thy will for my life. I give myself, my time, my all, utterly to Thee to be Thine forever. Fill me and seal me with Thy Holy Spirit. Use me as Thou wilt, send me where Thou wilt, work out Thy whole will in my life at any cost, now and forever.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
A Whole New Dimension
We have been in Oklahoma for almost one month now.
GOD BLESS OUR FRIENDS who are sheltering us during
this transition period. Overall we are doing very well.
Things are different that is for sure - but not BAD DIFFERENT
just DIFFERENT -- not sure if that makes sense??? but anytime
you put two families together things are gonna get shaken up. Not
to mention the fact that we have two kids and they have 5. That
my friends adds a whole new dimension
We are homeschooling - which generally takes about 2 hours per day
sometimes less - I enjoy it most days but I also miss the kids being
out of the house for a bit too (hope that doesn't make me a bad
mom) But honestly - I loved using that time for Bible Study -
Cleaning - Laundry - Groc. Shopping - SCRAPBOOKING -- or just
hanging with my buds (Molly & Nicole) I miss having time to do
those things -- I am sure I could still have this time it is that I just
have to be more purposeful in my time management I guess. And
as for the kids - lets just say they both are excited to start school
and meet some new friends. They go back and forth on whether
they "like" being homeschooled - but then again I can't tell you the
number of times I have heard Makenna say "Mom, do I have to go
to school today?"
Driving here in Tulsa is very different than driving in Houston. No
one seems to be in a hurry to get anywhere - not sure if that is
good or bad? Guess it just depends on my mood that day - Oh
and I am not sure what the deal is but it seems many people here
don't realize that YEILD doesn't mean come to a complete STOP
and look around to see if you can proceed!!!
Can you tell I have a teensy weensy bit of Road Rage ;)
We are attending church here and it is AWESOME -- the worship
team is the best I have ever seen (or heard)
I am really trying to soak up this time we have with our friends.
It isn't always easy - the kids fight - there has even been some
blood shed :0 *gasp*
but I think the best part is that we are all LEARNING
I am seeing how patient Ashlee is with her kids - It is so refreshing
I can't help but want to be more like that - she lets them PAINT
now I don't mean watercolor - I mean actually help paint the walls
and when her 6 year old got some wall color on the already painted
trim she didn't even flinch -- I on the other hand probably wouldn't
allowed my kids to help paint.
Do I miss my fam in Houston? YES
Do I miss my friends? YES
Do I miss my house - my stuff - and my normal "routine"? YES
But all in all it is a great experience - and I know that my family
will always look back on this time and smile.
GOD BLESS OUR FRIENDS who are sheltering us during
this transition period. Overall we are doing very well.
Things are different that is for sure - but not BAD DIFFERENT
just DIFFERENT -- not sure if that makes sense??? but anytime
you put two families together things are gonna get shaken up. Not
to mention the fact that we have two kids and they have 5. That
my friends adds a whole new dimension
We are homeschooling - which generally takes about 2 hours per day
sometimes less - I enjoy it most days but I also miss the kids being
out of the house for a bit too (hope that doesn't make me a bad
mom) But honestly - I loved using that time for Bible Study -
Cleaning - Laundry - Groc. Shopping - SCRAPBOOKING -- or just
hanging with my buds (Molly & Nicole) I miss having time to do
those things -- I am sure I could still have this time it is that I just
have to be more purposeful in my time management I guess. And
as for the kids - lets just say they both are excited to start school
and meet some new friends. They go back and forth on whether
they "like" being homeschooled - but then again I can't tell you the
number of times I have heard Makenna say "Mom, do I have to go
to school today?"
Driving here in Tulsa is very different than driving in Houston. No
one seems to be in a hurry to get anywhere - not sure if that is
good or bad? Guess it just depends on my mood that day - Oh
and I am not sure what the deal is but it seems many people here
don't realize that YEILD doesn't mean come to a complete STOP
and look around to see if you can proceed!!!
Can you tell I have a teensy weensy bit of Road Rage ;)
We are attending church here and it is AWESOME -- the worship
team is the best I have ever seen (or heard)
I am really trying to soak up this time we have with our friends.
It isn't always easy - the kids fight - there has even been some
blood shed :0 *gasp*
but I think the best part is that we are all LEARNING
I am seeing how patient Ashlee is with her kids - It is so refreshing
I can't help but want to be more like that - she lets them PAINT
now I don't mean watercolor - I mean actually help paint the walls
and when her 6 year old got some wall color on the already painted
trim she didn't even flinch -- I on the other hand probably wouldn't
allowed my kids to help paint.
Do I miss my fam in Houston? YES
Do I miss my friends? YES
Do I miss my house - my stuff - and my normal "routine"? YES
But all in all it is a great experience - and I know that my family
will always look back on this time and smile.
Monday, December 31, 2007
Alive in Oklahoma
:D
just a quick post to say we are alive and well in Oklahoma -
We moved on the 17th but have been having so much fun at the
Baker house that I haven't updated my blog
just a quick post to say we are alive and well in Oklahoma -
We moved on the 17th but have been having so much fun at the
Baker house that I haven't updated my blog
Friday, December 14, 2007
ICE ICE BABY
ok - so the title isn't the greatest - but today it's all i got ;)
So we are hoping to move on Monday but there is still no
power in parts of Tulsa, OK (if you don't know what i am talking about
watch the news - ICE STORM)- particularly the area we are moving to.
I am still packing regardless - lots of laundry to finish up - I just
have this feeling that at the last minute the power will be on and
everything will go according to plan.
Although if it doesn't we will just hang out in Houston a bit longer :)
WOW -- I sound as if I am a "fly by the seat of your pants" gal - DO
NOT BE DISMAYED - I am not - but I am getting better at trying to be
So we are hoping to move on Monday but there is still no
power in parts of Tulsa, OK (if you don't know what i am talking about
watch the news - ICE STORM)- particularly the area we are moving to.
I am still packing regardless - lots of laundry to finish up - I just
have this feeling that at the last minute the power will be on and
everything will go according to plan.
Although if it doesn't we will just hang out in Houston a bit longer :)
WOW -- I sound as if I am a "fly by the seat of your pants" gal - DO
NOT BE DISMAYED - I am not - but I am getting better at trying to be
Sunday, December 09, 2007
It's the Most WONDERFUL TIME of the YEAR
I LOVE CHRISTMAS IT IS MY FAVORITE HOLIDAY
I love the music
i usually start listening to Christmas music in early November
I love to buy gifts
not so much the spending money part but the search for something
that the receiver truly wants/needs or would enjoy
I love the decorations
we are moving in 8 days so we didn't put up decorations this year
but I am already looking forward to decorating our new tree for next year
my mom bought me some new decorations when she was here after my radiation treatment - can't wait to put them up
Most importantly I love seeing my kids GET IT - really GET what we are celebrating
THE BIRTH OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOR , JESUS CHRIST
and that is what makes this the most wonderful time of the year
photo of Makenna taken at her grandparents house last weekend
Thursday, December 06, 2007
11th Hour
Ever notice how it is always in the 11th hour
always
God does something so wonderful only HE could have made it happen. I seem to find myself in some sticky situations - some big mistakes - and right when i start to get a little panic-y --- a little UNCOMFORTABLE -- HE rushes in to my rescue
I have to admit it is pretty awesome having JESUS as my SUPERHERO -
now don't misunderstand me - I don't think HE protects me from everything - after all it is the struggles that build our character and our faith -- but I can't help but smile when HE busts in and totally saves the day
always
God does something so wonderful only HE could have made it happen. I seem to find myself in some sticky situations - some big mistakes - and right when i start to get a little panic-y --- a little UNCOMFORTABLE -- HE rushes in to my rescue
I have to admit it is pretty awesome having JESUS as my SUPERHERO -
now don't misunderstand me - I don't think HE protects me from everything - after all it is the struggles that build our character and our faith -- but I can't help but smile when HE busts in and totally saves the day
Friday, November 30, 2007
Back amongst the living ;)
So we have been sick for a little over a week now and it has gone through EVERYONE in the house - including the momma :0 GASP -
it was nasty
and PRAISE the LORD
it is over
and that is all I have to say about that
it was nasty
and PRAISE the LORD
it is over
and that is all I have to say about that
Pokemon: It's not just cool....
Noah and I just had this conversation
Noah: Mom, I don't understand why he never wants to play or talk about pokemon anymore. He says (he was talking about a friend of his) that it is getting OLD.
MOM: Well maybe he just isn't into Pokemon anymore. Maybe he doesn't think it is cool.
Noah: Mom POKEMON is not just cool (with the duh attitude) IT'S SUPER COOL
so maybe the typed version of the conversation wasn't as cute but he said it with such CONVICTION I just don't want to forget it ;)
Noah: Mom, I don't understand why he never wants to play or talk about pokemon anymore. He says (he was talking about a friend of his) that it is getting OLD.
MOM: Well maybe he just isn't into Pokemon anymore. Maybe he doesn't think it is cool.
Noah: Mom POKEMON is not just cool (with the duh attitude) IT'S SUPER COOL
so maybe the typed version of the conversation wasn't as cute but he said it with such CONVICTION I just don't want to forget it ;)
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Thanksgiving
Thanksgiving may have already come and gone but tonight I am up late thinking of all the things I am thankful for
- My HUSBAND (who I am still MISSING)
- My children - all 3 of them - they have each taught me so much and changed my life in a profound way
- How AWESOME God is and how He always provides for us
- FAMILY
- FRIENDS
- that Noah is feeling better - He was sick all day (stomach yuckies) but he is awake watching Kim possible at 12:15am so he must be feeling better ..... right?
- singing Christmas Carol's in the car on Thanksgiving Day with the kids
- that I am cancer free and getting stronger everyday
Who says Thanksgiving is only ONE DAY -- I would love to hang onto this grateful attitude all year long -- I am sure it might take a little work but it can be done
Monday, November 19, 2007
Happy Birthday .....
Happy Birthday to ME
yep -
go me .... it's my birthday
officially still YOUNG ;)
thanks Molly for hangin with me on my special day --
without you I would have been wallowing in pity in my pajama pants all day ....
come on .... you know it is true
I love you girl - and I consider my self so FREAKIN BLESSED to have
been able to hang with you so much since we moved back to Houston
You know I am gonna miss ya -- LOVE YA
yep -
go me .... it's my birthday
officially still YOUNG ;)
thanks Molly for hangin with me on my special day --
without you I would have been wallowing in pity in my pajama pants all day ....
come on .... you know it is true
I love you girl - and I consider my self so FREAKIN BLESSED to have
been able to hang with you so much since we moved back to Houston
You know I am gonna miss ya -- LOVE YA
Friday, November 16, 2007
Change
Sometimes I am in awe of the creatures that God has created. The chameleon for example - I find it amazing - how easily it adapts to change (took this picture at the zoo on Nov.6th 2007)
Too bad most humans aren't as easily adaptable. I am not sure about you but I am not.
The whole thing with Heath working in Oklahoma - I can't seem to find my footing - I can't seem to get used to it - you would think after a while I would find a new "normal" a new routine - but I can't - I am completely MISERABLE -- I miss him tremendously and it is only getting worse.
So I am praying that God sends a buyer to my Open House this weekend. Then the kids and I can move without having to pay 2 house payments (YuCk!) and our little family can all be together again.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
lastest happenings and random thoughts
This week has just flown by -- like a BLUR --
Heath was here and then gone again way too fast -
and though I am relieved to be Cancer Free it is kind of odd to actually let go of it. Almost like I can't believe it is real. I don't have to fight it anymore and I am FREE from it.
Aside from the cancer stuff nothing seems to be going as "planned" and some moments it can seem to sneak up and strangle me but for the most part I am trying to focus on the fact that just because things aren't happening in "MY TIMING" doesn't mean they aren't going according to HIS -- and honestly THAT IS REALLY THE POINT -- ISN'T IT
Before Heath left Makenna came down with a stomach virus and she missed school everyday except for Monday this week. At one point Makenna was holding her head over the toilet - the dog was throwing up and Noah was saying "mom my stomach is really hurting" For a second I thought "can it get worse" then I took the dog outside and found a lovely dead bird (gross) on my deck. This is one of the things that I took for granted when my husband was home - This would have definitely fallen under the HUSBAND category -- I am telling you this story not to COMPLAIN but to just say that sometimes things FEEL like they are falling apart -- we have all been there - but the GREAT part of the story is that Makenna, Noah, and even the dog are all feeling better and miraculously the dead bird disappeared. I left it on the deck for 2 days because I couldn't stand the thought of having to dispose of it. And on the 3rd day it was GONE. Now I know many of you are thinking - YEAH So WHAT -- but I couldn't help but think that this was just one of the ways that He is looking out for me -- how HE is involved in even the tinyest aspects of my life -- and you know what if He will take care of that little stuff - I know He will not leave me out to dry on the BIG stuff (like selling the house). So I guess what I am saying is that even though we didn't sell the house in record time - I know we will sell it when it is the perfect time
"Let us therefore draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and may find grace to help in time of need." Hebrews 4:16
Heath was here and then gone again way too fast -
and though I am relieved to be Cancer Free it is kind of odd to actually let go of it. Almost like I can't believe it is real. I don't have to fight it anymore and I am FREE from it.
Aside from the cancer stuff nothing seems to be going as "planned" and some moments it can seem to sneak up and strangle me but for the most part I am trying to focus on the fact that just because things aren't happening in "MY TIMING" doesn't mean they aren't going according to HIS -- and honestly THAT IS REALLY THE POINT -- ISN'T IT
Before Heath left Makenna came down with a stomach virus and she missed school everyday except for Monday this week. At one point Makenna was holding her head over the toilet - the dog was throwing up and Noah was saying "mom my stomach is really hurting" For a second I thought "can it get worse" then I took the dog outside and found a lovely dead bird (gross) on my deck. This is one of the things that I took for granted when my husband was home - This would have definitely fallen under the HUSBAND category -- I am telling you this story not to COMPLAIN but to just say that sometimes things FEEL like they are falling apart -- we have all been there - but the GREAT part of the story is that Makenna, Noah, and even the dog are all feeling better and miraculously the dead bird disappeared. I left it on the deck for 2 days because I couldn't stand the thought of having to dispose of it. And on the 3rd day it was GONE. Now I know many of you are thinking - YEAH So WHAT -- but I couldn't help but think that this was just one of the ways that He is looking out for me -- how HE is involved in even the tinyest aspects of my life -- and you know what if He will take care of that little stuff - I know He will not leave me out to dry on the BIG stuff (like selling the house). So I guess what I am saying is that even though we didn't sell the house in record time - I know we will sell it when it is the perfect time
"Let us therefore draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and may find grace to help in time of need." Hebrews 4:16
NEW BABY
CONGRATS Ronnie and Ashlee B. on the birth of little Lucas.
as I pray for him and the family God has blessed him with the scripture that keeps playing through my head is this
" For this boy I prayed, and the Lord has given me my petition which I asked of Him"
1 Samuel 1:27
I am so excited for them and I pray that God continues to pour out His blessings upon their family.
can't wait to get to OK to snuggle this new little one
as I pray for him and the family God has blessed him with the scripture that keeps playing through my head is this
" For this boy I prayed, and the Lord has given me my petition which I asked of Him"
1 Samuel 1:27
I am so excited for them and I pray that God continues to pour out His blessings upon their family.
can't wait to get to OK to snuggle this new little one
Noah's Favorite Scripture
A few weeks ago Noah proclaimed that Psalm 23 was his "FAVORITE CHAPTER IN THE BIBLE"
"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Even Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil; for Thou art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me. Thou dost prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; Thou hast anointed my head with oil; My cup overflows/ Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever."
"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul; He guides me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Even Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil; for Thou art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me. Thou dost prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; Thou hast anointed my head with oil; My cup overflows/ Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever."
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
CANCER FREE
GUESS WHAT !!!!!
IT IS OFFICIAL
I AM CANCER FREE
wanted to share that I had my scan on Monday evening and found out on Tuesday that I will not be needing anymore rounds of radiation -- PRAISE GOD!! -- they didn't see anymore areas of concern so now we will start the process of just getting my body regulated on thyroid replacement medication.
Thank you all so much for your prayers and support- it means so much more than you could ever know -
God is SO AWESOME and I know that HE not only HEARS but HE ANSWERS PRAYERS as well. Please pray for the regulation of the medication, the sale of our home, and most importantly the reuniting of our family!
THANK YOU FOR CELEBRATING THIS WITH ME!!!!
MANY BLESSINGS
Shawnna
IT IS OFFICIAL
I AM CANCER FREE
wanted to share that I had my scan on Monday evening and found out on Tuesday that I will not be needing anymore rounds of radiation -- PRAISE GOD!! -- they didn't see anymore areas of concern so now we will start the process of just getting my body regulated on thyroid replacement medication.
Thank you all so much for your prayers and support- it means so much more than you could ever know -
God is SO AWESOME and I know that HE not only HEARS but HE ANSWERS PRAYERS as well. Please pray for the regulation of the medication, the sale of our home, and most importantly the reuniting of our family!
THANK YOU FOR CELEBRATING THIS WITH ME!!!!
MANY BLESSINGS
Shawnna
Sunday, November 04, 2007
HOME :)
My honey is back at home and all is right with the world again.
Now it really feels like HOME again.
Now it really feels like HOME again.
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Open House
Saturday
:( today's open house was a BUST -- I was really hoping I would come home to at least ONE contract. Maybe I am just too optomistic. I am trying to be patient but I am missing my husband more and more with every passing second.
We are going to do another OPEN HOUSE next SUNDAY NOVEMBER 11 from 1-4 - so if you know anyone in the Houston area who is looking to buy a house please let me know.
Friday
had one showing - the garage couldn't accomodate their vehicle :(
other than that I just cleaned house for the OPEN HOUSE and took Makenna to dance.
Thursday
My mom had to go back to Oklahoma today :( Missing her already. My brother locked the keys in his car and my mom had his spare set in her purse - it wasn't that big of a deal because she was going to leave on Friday or Saturday anyway but being the "planner" that I am it sort of threw me off a bit - We were able to squeeze in a few hours of shopping before she left -- I love to window shop with my mom - :) :) :) -- It will be nice to live closer to her and spend more time with her.
:( today's open house was a BUST -- I was really hoping I would come home to at least ONE contract. Maybe I am just too optomistic. I am trying to be patient but I am missing my husband more and more with every passing second.
We are going to do another OPEN HOUSE next SUNDAY NOVEMBER 11 from 1-4 - so if you know anyone in the Houston area who is looking to buy a house please let me know.
Friday
had one showing - the garage couldn't accomodate their vehicle :(
other than that I just cleaned house for the OPEN HOUSE and took Makenna to dance.
Thursday
My mom had to go back to Oklahoma today :( Missing her already. My brother locked the keys in his car and my mom had his spare set in her purse - it wasn't that big of a deal because she was going to leave on Friday or Saturday anyway but being the "planner" that I am it sort of threw me off a bit - We were able to squeeze in a few hours of shopping before she left -- I love to window shop with my mom - :) :) :) -- It will be nice to live closer to her and spend more time with her.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
10-26 thru 10-31
OK -- so here is yet another CATCH UP POST FROM ME -- I must be the worst blogger alive .... maybe not the worst but at least I have a good excuse this time ;) :D :P
10-26 Friday until 10-28 Sunday -- still had the yuckies - not sure if it was from the radiation or just some random stomach thing ??? thank goodness my momma is here - I have been SLEEPING all the time -- She must be bored to death -- She has taken the kids to Target a few times and of course to the Dollar Tree (they had $2.00 a piece from recycling cans)
Sunday afternoon Kenneth came over and did pumpkins/jack o' lanterns with the kids they had a good time - Noah wanted nothing to do with cleaning out the inside of the pumpkin :D ;) to slimy for him
10-29 - Monday -Heath called - he was in San Antonio for a business training - I drove out to see him (only about 3 hours) VERY SPUR OF THE MOMENT -- literally decided to do it in about 30 minutes and within an hour of him asking me to come (5:30pm) I was gassed up and on the road - I felt so guilty about not being able to bring the kids along (school and stuff) but it was so nice to be able to just be with my husband. Lucky for me my mom was here and willing to take care of my kiddos for me - She ROCKS!!!
10-30 Tuesday - Spent the day in San Antonio with Heath and he changed his flight until Wednesday so we could have another night together - We went to the RIVER WALK - very romantic at night - Had dinner outside and then headed back to the hotel -
10-31 Wednesday - Dropped Heath off at the airport in San Antonio and drove back to Houston - Shopped a bit with my mom and then it was time to get the kids off the bus and before we knew it it was time to get them ready to go trick or treating - We went with Melissa and her crew - the kids made out like bandits this year - this was the first year that they didn't go to 5-6 houses and want to stop -- I am sure it helped that they were with a group of kids -- They had such a great time ---
Makenna was Cleopatra and Noah was Ash (a Pokemon Trainer)
10-26 Friday until 10-28 Sunday -- still had the yuckies - not sure if it was from the radiation or just some random stomach thing ??? thank goodness my momma is here - I have been SLEEPING all the time -- She must be bored to death -- She has taken the kids to Target a few times and of course to the Dollar Tree (they had $2.00 a piece from recycling cans)
Sunday afternoon Kenneth came over and did pumpkins/jack o' lanterns with the kids they had a good time - Noah wanted nothing to do with cleaning out the inside of the pumpkin :D ;) to slimy for him
10-29 - Monday -Heath called - he was in San Antonio for a business training - I drove out to see him (only about 3 hours) VERY SPUR OF THE MOMENT -- literally decided to do it in about 30 minutes and within an hour of him asking me to come (5:30pm) I was gassed up and on the road - I felt so guilty about not being able to bring the kids along (school and stuff) but it was so nice to be able to just be with my husband. Lucky for me my mom was here and willing to take care of my kiddos for me - She ROCKS!!!
10-30 Tuesday - Spent the day in San Antonio with Heath and he changed his flight until Wednesday so we could have another night together - We went to the RIVER WALK - very romantic at night - Had dinner outside and then headed back to the hotel -
10-31 Wednesday - Dropped Heath off at the airport in San Antonio and drove back to Houston - Shopped a bit with my mom and then it was time to get the kids off the bus and before we knew it it was time to get them ready to go trick or treating - We went with Melissa and her crew - the kids made out like bandits this year - this was the first year that they didn't go to 5-6 houses and want to stop -- I am sure it helped that they were with a group of kids -- They had such a great time ---
Makenna was Cleopatra and Noah was Ash (a Pokemon Trainer)
Friday, October 26, 2007
back again
just to say that I MISS YOU BABE - isn't that pathetic -- I know I can be TOO MUCH at times but I want to call and tell him but he has such a HUGE day tomorrow that I don't want to disturb him
I can't sleep - never imagined I would be going to bed all alone on our 10 year anniversary
- ok - so enough is enough I am putting on my "BIG GIRL PANTIES" as my friend Molly would say - I am going to suck it up - stop my whining and just shut down the pc - turn off the lights and just go to be already - I can do this....... right
peace out ;)
Shawnna
I can't sleep - never imagined I would be going to bed all alone on our 10 year anniversary
- ok - so enough is enough I am putting on my "BIG GIRL PANTIES" as my friend Molly would say - I am going to suck it up - stop my whining and just shut down the pc - turn off the lights and just go to be already - I can do this....... right
peace out ;)
Shawnna
the yucky side of it all
so here is my little grip session
- just to keepin' it real -
that's is all I am saying - now I am going to follow that up with some positives
- just to keepin' it real -
- I really don't like nausea
- but I like diarrhea even less
- FAKE PEOPLE REALLY GET ON MY NERVES
that's is all I am saying - now I am going to follow that up with some positives
- Round One of Radiation is OVER!!! (praying there is no need for round 2)
- We had our first showing on the house while I was in the hospital - and though there was no offer - we got some great feedback
- My mom is here :D :D :D
- My kids are coming home tomorrow - and though i have to stay 6 feet away from them I am just so thankful to have them back at home :D :D
- Heath is COMING HOME on the 4th -- I totally can't wait!!!!
- Ashlee didn't have her baby last night - I really want her to wait until I get to Oklahoma so hopefully God will sell this house quickly :)
10-25 IT'S OUR ANNIVERSARY
HAPPY 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY HONEY!!!!
I LOVE YOU and CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU!!!
COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS!
I LOVE YOU and CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU!!!
COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS!
10-24 I AM FREE
First and foremost I just want to PRAISE GOD - Not only did he bring me home safe and sound from the hospital but I was able to come home a day early -- I like to think I was paroled early for good behavior ;) but I am CERTAIN it has something to do with all of you prayer warriors -- THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
Not feeling WONDERFUL but at the same time not feeling as bad as I thought it could be. Having a few issues with eyesight and lots of muscle spasms but that is due to my TSH being so high and not due to the radiation.
They put me on two different thyroid medications to try to bring my TSH level up faster - I may/may not be going to the endochrinologist tomorrow? But the next BIG THING will be my total body scan on Nov 5th - this will tell them
1. if any thyroid cells are left - if so we will do more radiation
2. if there is any cancer anywhere else in my body
So please pray for those things specifically as well as for my entire family.
THANK YOU :D
Shawnna
Not feeling WONDERFUL but at the same time not feeling as bad as I thought it could be. Having a few issues with eyesight and lots of muscle spasms but that is due to my TSH being so high and not due to the radiation.
They put me on two different thyroid medications to try to bring my TSH level up faster - I may/may not be going to the endochrinologist tomorrow? But the next BIG THING will be my total body scan on Nov 5th - this will tell them
1. if any thyroid cells are left - if so we will do more radiation
2. if there is any cancer anywhere else in my body
So please pray for those things specifically as well as for my entire family.
THANK YOU :D
Shawnna
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Solitary Confinement ;) TAGGED and SHOUT OUT TO K
So I am running around today like a chicken with its head cut off doing all those last minute things that one "remembers" that need to be done before I head off to what I am currently referring to "solitary confinement" (although it sounds like a punishment one gets while misbehaving in prison - I like it better than Radiation - and since this is MY BLOG ;) I get to call it whatever I want)
this is the part where everyone nods their head in agreement
are you nodding?????
there you go
thanks
Tag, you're it!
http://erinbassett.typepad.com/creativite/2007/10/tag-youre-it.html tagged me.
Here are the rules which must be posted on your blog if you are tagged:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself: some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post and list their names (linking to them).
4. Let them know they've been tagged by leaving a comment at their blogs.
Here's 7 facts about me:
Now, here's who I'm tagging:
Erin
http://www.giftforgab.blogspot.com/
LindaN (but i like to call her MOMMY even though we aren't biologically related)
http://lynn-scrapppincollector.blogspot.com/
Brenda
http://brendacarpenter.typepad.com/
Gretchen
http://www.gretchenschmidt.blogspot.com/
Brandy
http://www.brandylogan.blogspot.com/
Susan
http://susieqscrapbook.blogspot.com/
Ashlee
http://www.ashluvs2.blogspot.com/
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------Wanted to send a quick shout out to my SISTER IN CHRIST -- KARENGirl I LUB LUB LUB U and your words meant more than I could ever express with words!!!
this is the part where everyone nods their head in agreement
are you nodding?????
there you go
thanks
Tag, you're it!
http://erinbassett.typepad.com/creativite/2007/10/tag-youre-it.html tagged me.
Here are the rules which must be posted on your blog if you are tagged:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself: some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post and list their names (linking to them).
4. Let them know they've been tagged by leaving a comment at their blogs.
Here's 7 facts about me:
- I don't like to be bossed. (although God is teaching me obedience can be an awesome thing)
- I am missing my husband more and more each and every passing second. Thursday is our 10 year anniversary!
- Right now I am more calm about the Cancer than I am about the other drama in my life.
- My friends ROCK! God has blessed me tremendously in this department. I have come to see them as "the FAMILY you get to CHOOSE".
- I think sometimes we go through crazy things so we can be reminded that we do need HIM - I think HE wants us to recognize that and call out to HIM. HE is the only ONE that can be there for us every second of every day. HE is the only ONE that will NEVER LET US DOWN.
- I am totally rockin' out to BETTER DAYS by Robbie Seay Band - I have been trying to figure out how to add a music player to my blog with this song but I can't ever get it to play :( This is an awesome song so check it out if you can - i think it is on youtube ?? OH and if you know how to add music to your blog feel free to throw me a bone and give me a how to in the comments.
- I went over my allowance last month - (but it was to buy a clip it up) my hubby said he would make me one but he has enough on his plate ;) the least I could do was take that off his "to do" list ..... right??? ;)
Now, here's who I'm tagging:
Erin
http://www.giftforgab.blogspot.com/
LindaN (but i like to call her MOMMY even though we aren't biologically related)
http://lynn-scrapppincollector.blogspot.com/
Brenda
http://brendacarpenter.typepad.com/
Gretchen
http://www.gretchenschmidt.blogspot.com/
Brandy
http://www.brandylogan.blogspot.com/
Susan
http://susieqscrapbook.blogspot.com/
Ashlee
http://www.ashluvs2.blogspot.com/
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------Wanted to send a quick shout out to my SISTER IN CHRIST -- KARENGirl I LUB LUB LUB U and your words meant more than I could ever express with words!!!
Friday, October 19, 2007
In the Details
I scored over 100 - gee i must be smart ;)
had my bloodwork done today - and the nurse at the oncologists office decided to do a CBC too because I have been feeling so badly - wasn't sure what it was - I thought it could just be the cooler weather we have had lately or just all the dampness/rain - but it looks as though it is due to my TSH being over 100. I needed it to be a 50 to start radiation on Monday (normal range is consider to be between .3 and 3.0) I totally blew that out of the water ;) so guess who has a ticket to the hospital for Mon-Thurs.
IT'S ME
IT'S ME
(said in my best spartan cheerleader voice from SNL)
Send up some prayers for my fam ... would ya
Heath is still in OKLAHOMA
and the kids will be staying with Nicole (whom I often refer to as FUN MOM) she is a wonderful friend who offered to help out.
It seems almost CrAzY to me sometimes when I think of all that is going on - and sometimes I feel really beaten down -- like i am out on a ledge and just begging for someone to throw me a rope or something - Then God does something that ONLY HE COULD DO and I just set back in AWWWE of Him --
Life is GOOD when GOD is in the DETAILS
had my bloodwork done today - and the nurse at the oncologists office decided to do a CBC too because I have been feeling so badly - wasn't sure what it was - I thought it could just be the cooler weather we have had lately or just all the dampness/rain - but it looks as though it is due to my TSH being over 100. I needed it to be a 50 to start radiation on Monday (normal range is consider to be between .3 and 3.0) I totally blew that out of the water ;) so guess who has a ticket to the hospital for Mon-Thurs.
IT'S ME
IT'S ME
(said in my best spartan cheerleader voice from SNL)
Send up some prayers for my fam ... would ya
Heath is still in OKLAHOMA
and the kids will be staying with Nicole (whom I often refer to as FUN MOM) she is a wonderful friend who offered to help out.
It seems almost CrAzY to me sometimes when I think of all that is going on - and sometimes I feel really beaten down -- like i am out on a ledge and just begging for someone to throw me a rope or something - Then God does something that ONLY HE COULD DO and I just set back in AWWWE of Him --
Life is GOOD when GOD is in the DETAILS
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
While most are sleeping
I am playing on the computer/ blogging and just thinking these random thoughts
- Thinking about how much I miss my husband
- about what I can do to help my kids adjust to it all
- what my stinkin' TSH level will be on Thursday
- how nice it was to go back to bed for a few hours today
- about how much fun it was when my two friends woke me up and MADE ME GO TO LUNCH WITH THEM (u know who u r) -- ok so the waking me up part wasn't fun but once i was out of the house I had a really good time -
- and about how today has been so much better (spiritually) for me - had some great quiet time last night and it made a HUGE difference in my attitude today -
so now i say goodbye and I am hoping to enjoy a nice long hot bath and some more quite time with God -- hope HE is still up (good thing we don't really have to ever worry about that) :P :) ;)
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